Lightning Shows

Day time and an asteroid seem company suited more for a dark room. Not the open of the morning in full blaze of the late spring on a sunny day. No dark and dank are more in mind. The evening dew on one's feet. Chill and sweat shirts. Looking out from where you are, to where you are not in wonder. A gathering of folks looking into the heavens at the light show in slow motion moving at millions of miles an hour. Wow, what a little distance will do to one's perspective.
This little story is not about asteroids. Thought the damage feels about as massive. When your head has a lightning show inside the skull it is a thing of wonder. Just a wonder to survive till the next moment. Drugs help a lot. Trigeminal neuralgia is a worn out spark plug wire. The one you touch in the car engine and get a wild shock. For those that have never worked on cars, and old cars for sure. This is a very unpleasant feeling. I mean it just stays with you for the longest time. The trigeminal nerve in my head does this everyday. Some days a little less. Some days are a lot more difficult. This morning was one of the difficult mornings. Though it could have been the flash of electric current running through the left side of my face without relief. I have had that one a few times. Down right scary those one's are. If I had lightning strikes every day. Well best to count my blessings. Today was the start up of a minor ache to a over all disability that makes one want to hurl. Hurl from the relentless pain. Just the smallest little nerve. Sending a hello off to the side of my face. Building and getting more building permits to build some more. It's housing development gone wild. Most of the time the drug works well to keep the pain down to a manageable level. If I avoid a lot of movement on the left side of my face. I keep the action of the nerve down. No reason to work if nothing is moving. You know like walking, chewing, keeping wind from hitting my face. Little things like living a real life some days. It's a hard time. One of my few treats is riding my bicycle. Oddly once I warm up the pain will not effect my ride 80% of the time. Then it will even brake through on a ride and bang. I want to bend my handle bars into a new shape. The drug helps a lot. Tegritol a nasty little drug designed for seizure's. It was first developed for epileptics. Now it is used as a nerve blocker of sorts. There are lots more drugs. I have tried a bunch. Most don't work so well. The doctors want to have you buy the most expensive drug. Kick backs I'm sure. The tegritol is not to bad. It only cost an arm. I have tried some that took it all. They did not work at all. No returns though. So I have this lightning show ever day. Some days are good. Some days are great. Every day is a show.
The next doctor show is a chiropractic that specializes in cranial manipulation. Deep breath big guy. I have all ready tried everything else. If they can't cut it. Moderner medicine hasn't a clue. So the show goes on. A million mile an hour. It's all how you look at it and where you look at it from.